But geesh. This is different.
When we spend time together.
I've never even used the word lovely before.
& I won't lie.
I'm afraid. I'm afraid of falling for him. Like really bad.
I know I know I'm no where close to that feeling yet.
But like. Idk.
Man his kisses are so sweet and ever so sensual.
It's like heaven. I haven't had someone kiss me oh so good since
Mr.Asshole. It's like I taste a little bit of sweet warm red velvet cake.
with Vanilla icing. Everytime we kiss.
And the way he holds me. Like I'm his prize possesion.
(Sigh) It just drives me wild.
And he's so respectful. If I don't want to do anything.
He'll respect that.
& he did respect it.
One question. Why am I always in a delimma like this.
But this time it's different. Because I know the feelings mutual.
But I really don't want to get hurt.
So what do I do.
What is Alba going to do?
I feel like the only way not to get hurt is to completely ignore him.
But I can't because when I see him it's kind of like
"awww there goes my boo".
But... He's not really mine :(
But he should be. And he shouldn't be with the girl that he's with now.
I just know it.
It's like I'm that kid in first grade about to come out of their seat
there hands as a high as possible for, seeing the answer so clearly in their
and astonished at the fact that no one else no the answer but them.
I'm that kid right now.
I so hate being a girl.
"I will love you anyway,
even if you cannot stay.
I think you are the one for me,
here is where we are to be..." - Chaka Khan
his face makes me happy. I mean yeah that could be with any other dude.